Friday, April 6

Focus, with some self-awareness for good measure

To add to the inspiration I've been enjoying lately, I've rediscovered just how focused I become when I drink a sugar-free Red Bull in the morning. I've been drinking very little caffeine for a month or two now due to my eye doctor telling me it was making my eyes worse, but I'm rebelling. As stupid as that is. I basically have a choice: get rid of the dry eyes/twitch, or get shit done. I think we all know which one I choose. Although, just for the record, my eyes twitched just as much when I wasn't drinking caffeine. I'm just twitchy, damnit.

The she-Jedi sees every quiet moment as an opportunity to become one with the Force. ...On the bus, on the train. Breathe. (BADU)

I took this on the plane from Los Angeles to Detroit but forgot to post it. When I am 10,000 to 36,000 feet in the air, my world is very quiet. (are you taking it lightly?)

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I am relentless when I want something. I put in long hours of my own personal time. I do two or three jobs at once. The energy that buzzes around inside of me is so intense that it summons others that are offer to give me what I need because they see so much passion inside of me. I see overwhelming beauty in things that no one else notices. I see everything in a different way. There are some days when I look around me and feel so overwhelmed by happiness that I have to take a moment and breathe or else I begin to feel like I'm going to wake up from a dream. Sometimes when I am walking, sitting, not talking to anyone...I catch myself smiling at nothing. I am a crazy person.

WHEN I CROSS OVER TO THE DARK SIDE, I am quick to go on the defense when I feel threatened or judged or pushed in a direction I'm afraid of. Some days are better than others, but I'll likely always struggle with it. It's just how I'm wired. I'm getting better though; I try to remember to think about what I say when I feel that way so I don't hurt the people I care about or miss out on really great opportunities. I am usually the person that enjoys staying in much more than going out, that enjoys quiet, creative activity much more than loud, physical activity. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that, but it requires me to work on saying Yes more than I say No, since most people are the opposite.

Here is one very important thing I know for absolute certain: I love you more than words can say.

Yesterday someone posted this and I found myself printing it off and hanging it by my work computer. What a great list! I've tackled about 5 or 6 things but the remaining points need some work. Specifically #1 and #2.

PS- The amazing Cassie from WittyTitleHere gave me an AWARD! I am so honored to have her as a reader and her blog is wonderful! Go check her out if you're looking for a good read. It's my duty to pass the award along to 5 other blogs that I love that have less than 200 followers. Here are my selections: Allison from My Quarter-Life Crisis, Samantha from Samantha, Herself, Kelli from Good News For People Who Love Bad News, Leah from Labor of Love(lace), and last but not least: my best friend in the whole world Amanda (aka Neil) from She Sings Inside.  Ladies, if you want to pass the award along to 5 blogs that you like reading, please do! If not, I won't judge. Thank you again Cassie! Nothing makes me happier than knowing the things I post are enjoyed by other people.


  1. I think I am most at peace when I'm in an airplane too! Watching the clouds and the land below is so calming! I too am relentless when there is something i want, but I lack passion and motivation when I don't care about something.

    P.S-Hey I say if an energy drink is what you need, then it might just a risk worth taking! I can't imagine that one drink has much effect on your eyesight, but I'm not a doctor so how would I know!

    1. I know it's not good for me to drink 10 of them a day....but does this guy realize how stressful it is for designers to constantly channel creative inspiration?! hahaha sometimes a girl just needs some damn caffeine!

  2. I love Sugar Free Red Bull. LOVE. :) Congrats on the award - I love your blog.